“You can’t always wait for the perfect time; sometimes you must dare to jump.”
Taper update and discussion
Today marks the second day of my first drop in the taper. I’m down from 30mg to 27.5mg and so far I can’t tell the difference at all and that’s exactly what I expected. I also think the distribution of 1 dose in morning, 1 in afternoon, 1 in evening is a solid option, if you receive a prescription or take home. While the first transition has been painless so far and I have a lot of confidence in the structured slow taper detox method, I think it is also important to keep expectations low, and accept the possibility that I might be faced with some real tests of strength as I continue to progress. Expectations are everything. Think of it this way, if you are shopping for a new car and you have something in mind that you believe will cost you about $25,000, then $22,000 would seem like a steal , and $28,000 would feel like a rip-off. But it’s your original expectation that influences these reactions. So even though I might have believed that slow tapering would be a walk in the park compared to rapid detox or cold turkey, I have trained myself to believe and expect that I should not be overly confident about the path ahead. In fact, I am expecting some major trials and bumps in the road, and I’ll need to be ready for them mentally. I also have a strong feeling that I have made a commitment to the world by launching this site. Once I started this “journey” towards 0mg with a specific schedule and plan, I felt like there was no turning back. I like to be a man of my word, and more importantly, if anyone that is aspiring to taper off methadone starts to follow this blog and decides to model their taper after mine, I would be extremely disappointed in myself if I failed and let these people down. It’s really not an option. I am very aware that the general notion surrounding opiate detox and especially methadone detox is that it’s the most difficult drug to kick and I’m trying to change a thought process that is based on years and years of facts and evidence, which is not easy to do. But at the same time, I do this because I have a belief that with almost anything in life, if you take the right approach, it changes everything. And with all due respect, I really believe many people that didn’t make it probably took the wrong approach and that just can’t work. I’ve said it again and again, but I’ll say it one more time: It is no surprise that all of the people with a positive experience kicking methadone are also advocates of slow taper.
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Current methadone dose and structure
This month’s taper schedule
I am currently in the second half of month #1 which is 27.5mg for the next two weeks. The taper plan for Month #2 will continue this pace and begin with 25mg/day.
Days on taper: 16
Qty decreased: 2.5mg
Qty to go: 27.5g
Goal: Begin Month #2 at 25mg.